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Genetics, Dr. Google, and Various Stages of Hope

written by Celeste Noelani
Google search for advancements in Neurofibromatosis type 2 treatments

People keep telling me to stop Googling NF2. To stay positive and maintain hope that my sciatic tumor is just a one-off deal that isn’t linked to my dad’s condition. For now…

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September 28, 2016 7 comments
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A Measure of Comfort

written by Celeste Noelani
Blue sky with clouds covering the sun

I hear her whispering in the middle of the night, her breath tickling the back of my neck. “Mommy,” she says with a catch in her voice. “Turn around and cuddle me.”…

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September 26, 2016 4 comments
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Possibilities

written by Celeste Noelani
photograph of fantastic figures, which were produced from plastic using 3D-printer

It is absolutely possible that the nerve sheath tumor on my right sciatic nerve is isolated, completely unrelated to the condition that ultimately took my father’s life. I know we’re…

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September 24, 2016 0 comment
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All to survive September

written by Celeste Noelani
rocks balanced on a beach log, overlooking Puget Sound at Carkeek Park in Seattle, WA

Real talk. I knew I had my dad’s condition. There were so many clues but they were explained away or outright dismissed by (sometimes shitty) doctors and I wanted so…

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September 22, 2016 5 comments
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Pain.

written by Celeste Noelani

Yesterday afternoon, my doctor called with results from the two hours I spent in the MRI tube on Monday. It’s not good news. I have a 3.5 cm tumor on my sciatic…

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September 21, 2016 6 comments
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The Price of Grieving in Paradise

written by Celeste Noelani

We mostly go home for funerals. It feels fitting, of course, because funerals have always been where we saw the whole family. And when you come from an enormous, aging ʻohana, there are…

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June 27, 2016 0 comment
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Watching Gray Skies

written by Celeste Noelani
Cloudy Evening In Seattle, June 2016

I don’t know if it’s actually going to rain. Wunderground says it will later tonight – there might even be thunder – but I still can’t tell if I should…

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June 16, 2016 0 comment
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The Truths I’ll Tell

written by Celeste Noelani
photo of a sign on a telephone post: black spray paint over stenciled lettering: HONESTY IS THE BEST POETRY - GREGORY ALAN ELLIOT

At the park with my five year-old, I share a smile with a Mom sitting next to me on the curb of the sand box. We start chatting about our kids,…

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June 10, 2016 0 comment
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The Burden of Sadness

written by Celeste Noelani
Angel With Broken Heart

I lie in his arms in the middle of the night. My eyes are still swollen from crying but my face is dry now, at least. “I’m sorry,” I tell…

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May 26, 2016 0 comment
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The Courage to Move Forward

written by Celeste Noelani

I started seeing a new therapist this week, which is as simple a sentence as it is a complicated reality. I’ve been alternately planning and dreading this move for a…

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May 19, 2016 2 comments
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